Thursday, December 3, 2009

Day 5

7 Cigarettes a day...

...because it is absolute zero outside. Too damn cold to be standing outside smoking. I'm freezing my ass off, everywhere I go. In my house, in my car, at work. Sucks.

Staying up late tonight (if you can call 11:00pm late). Had extra cup of coffee at work. Mistake.

I've noticed now that I can rarely smoke an entire cigarette. I must have at least 20 refrys on my porch. Only if I'm driving do I really smoke a whole one. I think it's because I have nothing else to do in my car. With no radio, no headphones for my mp3 player, or any sweet electronics on my dashboard, what else can I do? I am on the highway quite a bit now-a-days.

So annnnyways, had an interesting day at work. [AUTHOR EDIT]
I can't wait to start my new job doing what I love: working with children. I have been planning to move to live with my boyfriend. I will be going to school seeking an associates degree in Early Childhood Education. Working as a receptionist now but will be starting as a toddler teacher soon. Super excited! Working with kids is exactly what I want to do with my life.

This leads me to my next point. A huge motivation to quit (other then my blog) is that I love kids and I don't want the kids [in my class] to be exposed to that. I want so badly to have kids of my own so I want to be healthy when the time comes.
But until then, I have to rely on sheer will power to succeed. I guess we'll see what happens. Still trying to kick myself in the butt (Ha ha! Get it?) to quit. I think I am slowly making progress, one less every day. Just gotta keep it up.